Blue moments

In our daily life, it is not devoided by sadness and gloom. Sometimes, it is hard to see something nostalgic, something tht can bring up your past memories, your memories which are hurtful and unforgetable. Sometimes it hurts to talk and it even hurts to breathe. We always run from the truth...thruth which is painful. Human beings are weak and timid, when it comes to truth, most of us will choose to run away from it rather than facing it. Thats the reality. How many can really face the awful truth? The reality is cruel and indeed realistic, so wake up and face it. Easier said than done...As the saying goes, actions are louder than words but how many people actually can do it? Running away from truth is a tiring journey and requires persistent motivations. Motivations to motivate you to run away from truth. When you are in blue, you can feel that everytime you breathe, it takes double your energy to do so. Thats why its so hard to breathe when you are sad and you refuse to say anything. When you force yourself to spill the truth, thats where tears will accompany the spilling truth. How can one devoid sadness completely? No one could...Im typing this when im in blue, the moment i feel it is so painful to talk, to breathe and yet i cannot show it to anyone, I had to smile and laugh as if everything was alright. I cannot show my despair in front of my family, I can only hide it in my deep heart's core, suppressing it until it fades. I have been doing this for quite a number of times when I experienced one of the gloomiest moments in 2006. Anyhow, i must stand still again because its joie de vivre!